How did BDD affect your high school years?
High school it was not as bad as college but it was horrible, it was absolutely horrible in High School. I remember the the first year I was still BBD, but I was ok and I use to have like pictures of me and my friends on the wall and I would take pictures and stuff and just something hit right almost like when I went through my growth spurt. And I was really going through puberty. That's when the BBD's just took a mind of its own. I remember tearing down all the pictures of me on the walls, because I didn't want to have pictures of me anymore. I wouldn't let people take pictures of me. I didn't take my junior, in tenth, eleventh and twelfth grade I wouldn't take pictures. I just thought my acne was out of control. It was sad because we had kids on Accutane at school, who had horrible skin and they would still show up to school and I would have a couple of pimples here and there, but I was just obsessed. I took it to a whole other level and I use to want to sit in places in classes that were darker. I use to be so aware of the lighting. I use to want them to build like a dome over my high school and use like natural soft like orange light because you know they use florescent light and I felt like it made my skin look worse. My skin was such an obsession it would just took over I didn't want to look people in the face. I really felt like people who had clear skin were almost like human and I was human I was below them.
