What's it really like to be famous?
At first it is so exciting and it is so gratifying and cool it's like, “Everyone loves me! They like me ! They really like me!” That whole Sallie Fields moment is so awesome like that. It's like “Thank you”, people are giving me things, talking you saying I'm good, They're you know it's unbelievable because it never was like that. Gee they are inviting me places, they want to hear what I have to say. It's so awesome; this really is worth everything like that I have sacrificed of myself to get here. This is Balhalla! And then right after this it's like, “This is hell, this is horrible, this is awful!” once it turns, it always turns too. Well a lot of these people seems like they don't get a big harsh turn, some of them keep sailing but for the ones like me who gets that harsh turn where it boomerangs on you - it's just terrible it's like “What was I?” Somebody should have told me this”, but they're all dead hmm..? Perhaps that should have been a clue, like everyone I idolized is dead and died either by their own choosing or some level of it - drugs or whatever. It's terrible, scary thing. It's a drug for sure, I like Rosie's book, ‘Celebrity D-Tox'. That's the right thought, that is like an addiction like and then it just turns like, “Oh my God! I'm so excited!” then it's like, “Everything I say will go everywhere, everything I say will go everywhere, oh my God!”
