How have you been holding up emotionally after everything's that's happened?

How have you been holding up emotionally after everything's that's happened?

I'm definitely not over it. I had a really difficult time after the press circuit sort of died down. I, it finally really was like, oh my God, I'm not the winner and I'm not going to compete in Miss USA and it really was a really dark time for me. It was probably the week before Christmas and one, it's the holidays. So you add the holidays and you add the Christmas spirit and cheer and joy. I just wasn't having any of it. I was very depressed. I would speak to my mom about it and they would console me, my parents would try to console me with family things. Let's go out, or let's do this, let's do that, but it was so hard, and yes, I had some really dark moments within myself, feeling a lot of pity to myself but not in a way where it was like oh poor me, just kind of like why me? And what did I do wrong? So, that was very difficult. But, as of right now, I'm looking forward to my future, and I'm not, I don't want to dwell on this for the rest of my life. I don't want to have animosity or anger toward anyone who could be affiliated with what had happened because I'm not going to live my life like that. I'm not going to let other people run how I feel.